Super Bowl Weekend

Thanks to my Bestie , The Coco Loso: ( CÎROC COCONUT and Pineapple Juice ) I'm wore the hell out.. I can barely get anything done but slowly I will.. I <3 you and we have a freekin blast together.. I just need to remember not to over do it..

I ♥ Fabolous

OMG.. Honestly this FB Post from Fabolous made my day.. Its the small things that can bring a person joy and this is one of them.. I don't know if he runs his page or his assistant but I can say that this bought me a whole lot of joy.. XOXO

Dang it was a bad day : Jun 4, 2008

I am currently at Baylor Hospital and I decided to write a blog about the Longest & Worst day of my life. It all started yesterday about 9am when I started having chest pains from the night before and I just couldn't take it anymore.. I text my friend thats a nurse and asked her what could cause chest pains.. She replied that its normally stress; so I kind of brushed it off because stress can come from anywhere and I contiuned working. The pain began to get worse and my manager told me to take the day off and go to the ER. I go to the ER and about 2 hrs later I am out the door and at CVS to pick up my Hydrocodone.. I go home, get a bite to eat, take a pill, and go to sleep for about an hour.. When I woke up I remember that I am the same girl who can get sleepy off of Children's Aspirin so with these powerful drugs I need to be some where that people are 24 hrs a day because I am going to be out of there.. So I pack a light bag and head to McKinney.. One adventure to Oak Cliff and a cup of ice later I am downing another Hydrocodone and am fast asleep about ten pm.. While in dream land I hear " Say Hello" informing me that I have slept about 12 hrs and that it is now day break.. One snooze hit later I hear " Hey Mama" letting me that she is now fully awake and ready to bother me because I slept through all 20 of her calls. After insuring her that I am perfectly fine I cut the ringer off and head back to sleep.. The peaceful was distrubed thanks to the reminding 17 calls that contiuned to work my Blackberry Curve.. Finally the Lucky 18th call gets answered and its Brenda Joyce informing me that she looked my condition up on the web (Who the hell taught her that?? Whats next texting??) And because she feels that I was mistreated so she was leaving work and coming to my house to pick me up and take me to another ER.. SO I jump up and began to fly down 75 to beat my mom to Pleasant Grove. Once I arrive at home I jump in the bed like I have been confined to it for the last 20 hrs. So once she arrives I get dressed and we are off to Baylor... I must tell you now: BAYLOR IS ON THAT BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!! This ER is full of real sick ass people who cough/ sneeze / shit/ and anything else that they want to do without covering their mouths or noses. So if you ever get sick you need to pack your laptop/ some DVD's/ cell phone & charger/ pillow/ blanket/ and a snack! Also bring a lot of Hand Santization because these people are nasty... The best part about all of this is that Baylor has an un-secured network that you can tap into and keep yourself entertained... 14 hrs and counting!!!!!

Love this Kim K. Quote

"I love curves. Being super skinny just isn't attractive to me." Kim Kardashian

I love this quote from her.. Maybe it because I'm curvy too..

Darkness In 2010

I don't know why I have been on here.. Resolution for 2011- Blog More.. LOL.. Personally I am happy to see 2010 exit the building and I'm ready to start fresh with 2011.. I know its gonna bring some new beginnings and close some of the things thats no longer needed.. I think I'm gonna focus me and what I wanna do.. I cant live my life for my grandma / my mom / or anyone else.. I have to life it for me and make the best with the time that the Lord has given me.. I know he hasn't left me on this earth this long for no reason.. There is something that I am meant to do and I be dang if I dont figure it...

The first week in October was one of the worst of my life.. Freekin cop pulled me over cause I didn't have on a seatbelt.. (How he saw that in the dark - IDK ) .. My stomach dropped through the floor when he said " Natasha get out the car " Ummmmm No Sir - I watch the First 48, I know you about to try and take me to jail.. Sir don't call backup... Sir urrgggghhhh why is the second car here.. Yuuup you guess he politely took my butt to jail.. Called my mom and told her where to pick my car up.. Somehow this worst moment in my life turned into a bright one.. I got a lot of thinking done in the big house.. For some reason during the whole time I just remembered that the Lord doesn't put more on then you can bear.. That gave me comfort and got me through my 2 1/2 days.. HaHaHa what can I say my mama paid my bail.. That was long enough me for me.. I dont see how people become professional jailbirds.. 3 Hots and a Hard Cot.. SMH.. Just remember whenever your at your lowest.. There is always a way out of it and when you get out you will be able look at that experience, learn from it, and move on..

XOXO,
Tash

Karma

Some more things that I have been holding in that my closest and oldest friend dropped the biggest bomb on me. Her ex boyfriend called her because he wanna to discuss that was bothering him.. A guy that I had been / was / is in this off and on relationship for about 5 to 6 yrs now was telling all his brothers and friends that I call him all the time and that I randomly drive 4+ hrs to drive to visit him on my own.. he must have got our phone lines crossed because he's all saying come visit him.. this man has actually told me that he loves me.. but I have to remember how we started out.. it was a college fling.. meeting behind less crowed buildings, going off campus, the sneaking was a lot easier to deal with.. it just hurts because I try to give him his space but its still not working.. now with this one I think its really time to hand him a pink slip to exit my life.. Love is a lot of things but it couldn't be like this.. I cant be the girl that you wanna be with on your own terms.. I know that one day I'm gonna find a guy thats gonna love me when were alone and when were with his friends..

Imma Do Me.

Hi World! This is my first time blogging but I felt like I needed to vent and get some things off my chest.. Has there been a time when you have a phone full of numbers and feel so alone at the same time. I feel like often.. Doing this blog is gonna give me the chance to vent and put some feelings out there in the open. Hopefully I won't bore you too much with my complicated life.. we all have had the opens and downs but here lately I've been getting all the extras that come with life.. I'm not complaining because the Lord has being keeping me and he will continue to until he decides that its my time..
Ok I'm done rambling.. A couple of things happened last night but kinda felt me not in good spirit.. I have a friend that I have been knowing for about 9 yrs walked over to a convo that I having with another close friend so I stopped talking because the story was about another guy.. Of course he though I was talking about him.. Assured him wasn't.. Still there talking about I would tell him later.. Assured him I wouldn't... Dude starting loud talking about everything he has done for me because I said leave so I can finsh.. WTF.. so I'm getting upset because he is telling this to people that I don't talk to on a regular basics.. And then my friend says I need to say I'm sorry.. Nope I'm not gonna do it.. I would never in a zillion throw up things I have did for a person because if I do them out the kindness of my heart then that's it.. so he's all in my face I'm sorry.. I'm joking.. it too late and to top it he asks for a ride home.. True dude has been there for me but I don't have time for the drama.. that's all he is bringing me so I'm thinking of giving him the pink slip..